I am 36 years old! How in the hell did this happen? I swear it was 1990 only 10 years ago. I don't feel 36 at all (or whatever that feels like). I think I am more of a 29..ha ha humor me here. I just cannot wrap my mind around being over the hill of 35 already!
In my old age (ha ha) I have realized that I need very little to survive. I have left so much behind. Things that to this day I have not missed or looked for. I moved from a home of almost 5000 square feet to 1100sq feet. That means I took only what I needed to survive.... yikes, instantly I am transported to this moment when I say that line....
The morning of my birthday we had a snow day called for school, and the boys and I were trapped in our apartment for the day. Yes, me and a 7 year old and a 5 year old in an apartment - all day! Times 2 days of this, plus the weekend we had already. I needed to find a project to busy myself and to make use of this time before I lost it completely. Enter my unorganized pantry. It was organized at one point, but now it was a complete disaster. I struggle to not label myself a hoarder, but I think I may fall into that category. Food goes in - never comes out! But my apartment is clean people - just don't look in any closets or drawers. SHHHHH!
Begin the great clean out. Ok - so what did I find back here. Oh, let me get really embarrassed now. Stale raisins, opened and stale Cheerios, a bag of Halloween Oreos, a bag of popcorn dated July 2013 , and GASP an unfinished and stale bag of Doritos - I am ashamed. This is just a few of the highlights.
Sorting though all that nonsense on my birthday I came to a "light bulb" moment.
Throwing away shit feels good!
Throwing away shit feels really good!
Throwing away shit feels really fucking good!
All this crap I had in this pantry that I didn't really need anymore was blocking my view of what I needed. The items I use daily, and the staples every pantry needs to function. I had filled this pantry with garbage and it needed to be purged.
Then, hold on, it got even deeper. As I am dragging a bag of stale crap to the trash chute - I think about the people I have in my life. Not about dragging them into a trash chute..literally, but figuratively. I have a problem with collecting people and never letting them go. They sit around in my life (getting old and stale and useless) but I just can't part with them. They have been negative and downers and don't offer any use other than to piss me off. There are a few people like that in my life that I need to just be an adult and move on from. They are not a positive force in my life, they are blocking the few of the essentials and I need throw them away.
Just like when I left my life in 5000 square feel behind - I took only what I needed to survive. Such it is with the people I choose to surround myself with. Yes, have certain relationships fallen to the side - you betcha'! But with those out of the way I see the ones that truly I need to survive. Those other ones were cluttering my view of what I really needed - positive, supportive, loving people who care about me, my kids, and my future - genuinely.
|You have no idea how much better this is!|
So, if I haven't given you your pink slip notice yet that you are on your way out with me, you are safe, for now. I am a blessed girl to be surrounded by such awesome people, and moving forward I see great things ahead. Maintaining swagger by keeping a tidy pantry!? See, and you thought I had no good Mom Life advice!
Ok - phew that was a heavy blog - but I felt compelled to say it. I warned you all , this is a soapbox of random.
Next time - more on the light and fun side - I promise. I also told you that with the new year I would be putting "feelings all up in your face"! See I deliver! I love my friends - and know that I am not a rotting bag of Cheetos in your pantry of people. I strive to be there for everyone I care about - everyone.
Goodnight y'all, and don't be a stale chip!
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